Can I Be Honest?

Ok so I am rough, always been. I am a fighter, I am super strong...probably not as strong as I think, but still sometimes I barrel into circumstances as if I am invincable. That word, invincable holds so much power sometimes in my life, that when the reality comes crashing in that I am not, and no one is, I break hard...real hard. Right now so much beauty has entered my life. I am more free than I have ever been. I embrace the unknown, love like a LEDGAND (Love Effortlessly Drink Grandly And Never Deny). Yes I am aware that LEDGAND is actually spelled Legend. I have my own version of it of course. :) I am such a poser sometimes. lol So with all this wonder, when will I break? When will an onslaught of pain and confusion hit, taking me this way and that way, moving me from content to be idle, to hell bent on growing. Do I wanna grow? HECK YES! Am I looking forward to all the struggle and wounds that come with it sometimes...NOPE. lol But I will take each hit like a pro...why cause I am strong, not as strong as I put off, but strong enough to keep on breathing even when all the air is gone. I am only strong because I choose to be weak in the arms of God. I am not sure how that belief settles with any of you. Whether it offends or what have you, but oh well this is my blog ;) lol Today is an odd day. I rolled out of bed later than I wanted. I feel lazy today, being that its woman time and I would rather sleep this day away, I guess I am doing pretty good even being awake enough to write this blog. I have plenty, and I mean plenty of work to do. Research for sponsors for the summer tour, song arrangement rehearsal at 3pm, workout session at 5pm, a bunch of little things as well updates for the new music video, photo editing for press kits, e-mails to send, calls to be made. Maybe I could call Chel (my personal assistant) and have her handle a lot of the little things so I can focus on the bigger more hands on ones. lol She is so good to me. She takes care of everything I ask of her, I should give her a raise. LOL LOL LOL Anywho...Hope everyone's day is filled with LOVE and beauty and GROWTH. Don't be afraid of it...no matter how much it hurts NOW, now always becomes part of the past eventually.