Why do I write this crap?

Ok so I am tired, worked all day and feel like poop. I wanna just crawl into bed but I figured, I haven't written a blog in a long time and probably need to do so. So I am workin to save money for movin to Nashville in august. Although all I can think about all day long is just being away from here, living the life I enjoy rather than this temporary one I am forced to live. I hate 9 to 5'S. I hate the monotony of being in the same place, doing the same thing every day for 8 hours straight. That is frustrating. It's not like my job is challenging or exciting to me in any way. I take customer service calls for Bank Of America, which by the way, totally gettin a bank of america account asap! I guess thats the one cool thing thats come out of this job. lol I spend my spare time workin on promotions for the band, up till 5 am usually workin on that, conference calls in the morn, maybe catch a little MEEKAKITTY on youtube before headin off to BOA CENTER, then back to the apartment for more work a short nap they call sleep. lol

So life is, how do you say, shitty right now. I know it works toward the good though. God has a plan, and sometimes his angels feel more like punches to the face rather than helpers. lol But I know it will all work out, just a few more months of this mundane garbage and then I'm off to LA to record the first full length indie album with ZOBEST ENTERTAINMENT, very exciting stuff mind you. I have a concert this weekend in Morgantown, wv at a cafe called SOZO, very souped for that. ALTHOUGH, I have so much to get done and not enough time in my day for all of it of course. I am freaked a tad. So much to do, not enough time to do it in, and I'm only ONE person, go figure. lol But I need to just release all that stress and let it go, so tonight before bed, I am gunna just hand it over to the man upstairs and watch him take care of it all. :) Pray for my sanity.

Without A Bridge To Burn Life Is Glorious :)

So I have decided that the statement, "I have no more bridges to burn" aptly suits my life right now, why? Not because I am hopeless or without anything left in life to be joyous for, no on the contrary. Where as most people apply that phrase to a life that's seen it's last measure, I am applying it to a new way of looking at my whole world. :) You know me, always on the move for a NEW WAY of seeing. ;) See why use BRIDGES, when you can FLY! :) I have been using my wings a heck of a lot more lately. For such a long time my wings were weak, under construction, and some times I barely remembered I had them. So walking on bridges, trucking it out through the rough terrain of what we call the "ground", I became tired and forgot who I was. NOW, I have been reminded, God always seems to shed light on the darkest areas at just the right moment, giving us ample opportunity and time to step out and walk in it.

So it is, I am flying again. See all my bridges had burned, and I thought, what the heck, Ima drown in the sea of life if a bridge doesn't get re-built here soon...then like an angel encounter from nowhere, it hit me. Wait..."I FORGOT! I HAVE WINGS!" I can just fly now. So here I am flying, and my first flight...YESTERDAY WOOTWOOT! lol I flew out to LA for the week. Did I ever wanna come back here? Nope. lol But I went, for several reasons. Visit friends, sing in Hollywood, and do a few business lunches. So I woke up this morning and something hit me like a train...

I missed it here. I walked out onto the porch of my Mexican Parent's home, LOL, and it was 75 degrees and sunny at 9am and I thought, "Wow, I missed LA". haha I feel free here, more free than I have ever felt here, my heart is in a different place, I am in a different place. I will be here in LA till sat then headin back to 13 degree weather is gunna kill me! LOL But I will be glad to be with my Neenyo again and see my friends, and get back to work on album arrangemnt. LA is nice for a temporary stay, livin here is another story lol

So yes, no more bridges, look on your back, you have wings, start flying...today.